Relax...

For the very 1st time in many many months... I was relieved. Somehow... something in my heart was lifted.

I've never felt so so so relaxed... at least not for the past few months! =P

Awww.... juz wanted to laze around... like this guy...

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Mixed Feelings

It's the month of February... It's my birthday! =P

But... I have mixed feelings... I guess I wasn't as excited as I should be for my birthday... many things keep running on my mind... some things in the past... some things in the future... which I'm worried about.

Many things happened in the past months... Some things which I thought was hard for me to let go... I have let go. There are things which I thought would never have bothered me... is filling up my mind now.

I know many of my friends are worried for me.. and I thank all of you for your love and support.

Before I start my work on a Monday... I juz thought I wanna blog here... if any of you reading this... pls... pls... just give me time... how long? I don't know... just be patient.

Happy "Moo" Year!!!

Moo Moo Moo... hahaha...

This year's Chinese New Year is kinda wet... cuz normally during this time of the year, the weather would be hot, but this time around, it's raining almost every night!

The cool breeze is juz superb... I'm not complaining of the rain tho.. haha... But, it's juz worrying that the climate is changing...

So, what's the fuss about Chinese New Year? "Ang Pow", food, visitation, meeting up relatives and friends, play, watch TV... u just name it! hahaha...

I had a very good rest during this time, a well deserved one.. since I was working really hard for the few weeks prior to this holiday season... all the late nights... =P

Nothing much to blog about... or rather I am just lazy... (still holiday mood la.. ) hahaha... there's quite some photos supposed to be uploaded.. but, I'm juz lazy... *grin*

Till I blog again!

I missed her...

I woke up about 630am this morning... to realise that it was a dream.

For the first time in 2 years... I dreamt of her. I missed her... I missed her smile, her cheekiness, her everything.

Many times... I wished I had spent more time with her... but, I know I didn't do enough. It's already too late now. And this always has been something in my heart which I know I would never be able to fulfil.

Sitting there... my tears just can't stop flowing... I missed you... and I will always love you.

G.R.A.C.E.

G-race of God
R-eturn of the Prodigal Son
A-cknowledgement of the Father's Love
C-ourage of letting go
E-nd of bondage, Start of freedom

For the 1st time in several months, I picked it up and read it. I have also read a devotion... (read below)

It will take lots of perseverance and strength to continue my walk back to where I belong... but... I remember this saying, 'The journey of a thousand miles starts with one step'

Earlier... I went to a shop to check out some DVDs. Some English series caught my attention. I am 'addicted' to these lately... if you have not already known... hehe...

CSI (Season 1-8) caught my attention, then One Tree Hill (Season 1-5) & Criminal Minds(Season 1-3). I have decided to buy CSI, but still lamenting between One Tree Hill and Criminal Minds. In the end, the love of basketball helped me make the choice of the 2nd set of DVDs.

I started watching One Tree Hill when I got home. It reminds me of the days I used to play basketball and how much I loved the game.

A character in the series whom I love a lot - Lucas Scott said this...

“Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you. ”

God has been planting seeds in my heart.... He has been performing heart surgery on me. And today, the surgery room's lights went off. It was a SUCCESSFUL surgery! It's still a long way ahead to be fully recovered from this heart surgery, but, God will be there every step of the way.

The devotion I read earlier...

Immersed in Grace

He called you to share in his glory in Christ, a glory that will continue forever. ~ 1 Peter 5:10

To believe we are totally and eternally debt free is seldom easy. Even if we've stood before the throne and heard it from the king himself, we still doubt. As a result, many are forgiven only a little, not because the grace of the king is limited, but because the faith of the simmer is small. God is willing to forgive all. He's willing to wipe the slate completely clean. He guides us to a pool of mercy and invites us to bathe. Some plunge in, but others just touch the surface. They leave feeling unforgiven...

Where the grace of God is missed, bitterness is born. But where the grace of God is embraced, forgiveness flourished...

The more we immerse ourselves in grace, the more likely we are to give grace.