runway.. maybe u'd thought of the fashion mag Runway... well... it came across my mind as this.. but more appropriately.. to me.. it's a runway of my life... a road where i'm supposed to walk/run along throughout my whole life...
but... recently... i would like to runAway from this path... i would like to find a shortcut... a path for me to divert to... an ESCAPE route to be EXACT...
there are a few things which bothers me... well... 2 things, or rather 2 areas to be EXACT. Normally.. I would juz pour it out to my sis or fren(s) and i wud feel much better after pouring out.
but this time... i didn't do it. well.. there are fren(s) who noticed and asked me.. "is everything ok?" "are u ok?" "what's on your mind?"
my answer? "............."
i didn't answer their question(s) DIRECTLY...
I didn't want to share... i CHOOSE NOT to share... even my sis and a very good fren of mine(who are faithful listeners of mine) didn't kno wat's on my mind... I'm afraid to share... I fear the outcome... I fear wat would happen after i share... these 2 areas... are 2 important aspects of my life... i hold on to them dearly.
I know i should not hold on to these in my own hands... but... I juz can't do it!!! This time... i only cried out to God to help me... i'm heart broken... i can feel the pain...
It's something i have to overcome... i can't do it by myself.. i need God's help.
Do i actually have the little faith that God will work things out? honestly... i'm not sure...
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